I don't often feel blue - it's just not who I am. I get up, laugh at myself, play, climb trees when I can, sing, and in general make the most of life and get on with it. But, today I feel blue. I feel sad and lonely in this sea of city souls. How can one be surrounded by people and yet feel lonely?
I miss life the way it was when I was growing up - where you'd pop in for coffee when you were missing a friend, where you'd rally around a family who'd lost a loved one, where you'd cook a meal and take it over to people who had just moved in, where you'd ask "How are you" because you really wanted to know, and where you'd listen to the person's reply, where you could discuss the meaning of life while the sun was setting, and have impromptu meals together, just because you wanted to. Today I deeply miss that!
I am surrounded by neighbours whom I have been trying to get a smile out of for four years now (forget a wave 'hello'), by people whom one has to invite to your home two weeks in advance (hell, I don't even know if I would like to see them in two week's time - I want to see them NOW) and by busy schedules. All I want is a sandwich, a sunset and a serious conversation - that's what I want today!